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Friday, April 28th, 2006
12:26 pm
how long does it usually take to get over the loss of a loved one?


i was going really well, and at the moment i just i dunno, im just having trouble. maybe cause everything is piling up all together and rach keeps coming back into my mind..

i missed her when i visited..i walked into her room she was still there i reckon...i could feel her or something i dunno but i like to think she was there


x0x

current mood: curious

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Friday, March 31st, 2006
6:02 pm - ....
well what can i say?
two tumors isnt fair..not for 14 years..wat did she do to deserve this....
i keep thinking about it, about her not being there watching us, observing us when we go over
wat is everyone going to do?
i dont want her to leave..is that selfish..not wanting to say goodbye?
i wish i was over there..helping her..reassuring her that she will be ok..
i want her to last two more weeks so i can say goodbye in person, but then i dont, i dont want to watch my cousin leave us..i couldnt handle seeing all the sadness among all my rocks. All the people i turn to suddenly need me, need to lean on me..
i should have gotten to know her better..i should have more time too
how do i say it..how do i say..goodbye..for the last time

current mood: sad

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Friday, March 10th, 2006
8:06 am - boysssssssssssssssssssss!! =(
UGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
boys are so irritating...he cant just simply walk bak in my life and think i havnt moved on..i have someone new..someone who wants all of me not just one thing...he sounds like hes changed now though..i get so confused
OMG its not fair, hes a player..but he has a hold over me

=( =(

current mood: confused

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Sunday, March 5th, 2006
10:47 pm - yay for birthdays! ^_^
OK!!!
so last night was lisa's birthday...it also was mardi gras lol
i went to lisa's little shindig! it was awesome..got very very trashed however
had fun though..most of you will know what im talking about :P
lol
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENTAL PLAN!
xXx
<3

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
4:36 pm - birthdays
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEX AND LEESA!!!!!!!!
XxX



happy valentines day everyone!

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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
6:19 pm
im so over it..like at first it was awesome, i loved it but now its irritating me!
i cant wait that long, i cant
i mean i want to but its soo hard, i cant keep thinking about you everyday and wondering what your doing, its just pulling you and me down!!
ughhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
sooo frustrated *rips hair out*

current mood: blah

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Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
10:08 pm
well..its official...im over it!!
over everything
im so blah at the moment,
school sucks, so much pressue already i mean i had an exam in my first week bak..whats with that?
im not talking to one of my closest friends..about something stupid...the one person i open up to the most and love is in freaking qld....its not fair
i hate it

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Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
4:42 pm
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go

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Saturday, January 28th, 2006
11:26 pm
this is THE worst feeling ever...
i couldnt do it...i couldnt say it
i miss you
XxX
<3

current mood: crushed

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Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
10:26 am
oh hurrro!

how is everyone

well my parents have been away so my weekend was full of goon, work and late nights. lol
it was good though

I MISS ELLLLLLEEEEEE!!!!! =(
its been too long lol four days or something but stillllll i is missing her muchly

well thats about all from me


love to those who need it!

XxX

<3

current mood: okay

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Friday, January 6th, 2006
1:29 am
this is for my bestie!!
baby i love you like you have no idea!!
please come back to me

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Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
12:58 am
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
GIANT COCKROACH FLYING AROUND MY HOUSE!!
SOMEONE HELPPPP!!
~~~~~
on a seperate note i am so sun burnt wtf? haha i dont get sunburnt (apparentally i do)
ok so last night me and elle were down nulla and eric grothe junior walked past me! i can not believe it haha HOTTTIEEEE!
~~~~~
i cut all my hair off!
it is now shoulder length
elle nearly cried she was so excited lol
BYEE
XxX
<3

current mood: awake

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Saturday, November 26th, 2005
8:26 pm
i love this song!! LOVEE ITT!
well lately my life has been pretty good.
been quite social for me wierd!! haha
school is getting me down too much work lol
well im bored with a massive headache, might go out soon
lol
BYEE
XxX

current mood: cheerful

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Friday, November 25th, 2005
12:53 pm
everyone add coconutbaby to their friends list!! thanking you
XxX
<3

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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
8:45 pm
well i established that i am as clumsy as i thought i was!!
i stacked it, fully fell onto the ground...up rachel's stairs...yes thats right UP her stairs!! i giggled
then we walked and talked i feel happy! i missed my rachel!! hehe :)



elle call meeee....we need to talk, im sorry i got angry bout sat niht....biggest misunderstanding ever hahaha

love to all
XxX
<3

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Monday, November 7th, 2005
7:47 pm
i crave that feeling when i see you!
the feeling you only get when you see someone you love that you havnt for so long
i crave to feel your arms around me
its so hard, seeing fotos remembering the good times..and occasionally the bad..
i crave the way you make me laugh
wish i could just walk aorund and see you
i crave what other people have
to be able to see you, even for a minute its better then this


why so far away?

come back to me

current mood: crushed

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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
6:02 pm
i only have one question!!
whats with the flies?!?!?!?!?!? honestly
i think we should kill them all

current mood: aggravated

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Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
9:59 am
im on work placement and im loving it!!!!
me and rach and elle are backpacking around europe hahaha
XxX

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Sunday, October 9th, 2005
10:45 pm - thinking...
isnt funny how you can be there for someone their hole lives....anytime they needed you, you were there.
You were their rock! someone they could cry with, laugh with, you were always there for them to talk to. To listen to their bad jokes and even though you know they arnt funny you laugh anyway just to make them feel better.
Then all of a sudden they change, they start lieing..to your face. Just so they boost their popularity levels just that little bit higher. Just because u have one thing that you dont both agree on you arnt worth the trouble anymore.
They wont laugh when you tell a bad joke, they wont listen to your pointless stories, they arnt prepared to be your rock because of the way they look in other peoples eyes!
i wonder if they even realise how much they hurt you, how many tears you cry over them. I wonder if it even phases them that you have been incredibly let down, that it makes you a little bit more insecure that you werent good enough for them

current mood: curious

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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
12:59 pm
rach i miss our bondi!!
we must go soon..

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